A Post in Which I Declare My Love for Shia LaBeouf

I can’t stop listening to the song Elastic Heart by Sia. I probably listened to it twenty times today.  I listened on the way to work, while at work, unsuccessfully trying not dance in the grocery store while shopping.  I listened all.day.long.  It isn’t just the song that I love, but I was captivated by the video.  It stars our favorite child star Shia LaBeouf in all his glory (well, not ALL his glory, that was reserved for the second video) and some girl from Dance Stars or some reality show I’ve never watched.
For people who will get weirded out by the video-it is not a video about a young girl fighting with a man.  You can find a behind the scenes where Sia (the singer) describes how the girl, Maddie, represents the inner child part and the battle with different aspects of yourself. They are more archetypes. Or at least, that is how I see it.  Many have seen it as a struggle with addiction, struggle with self or even the struggle between fathers and daughters and growing up.  But I’ve also heard it is a story of two werewolves and a power struggle…who knows.

Besides just showing you this video, the real purpose of this platform to say this. I don’t care what anyone says- I love Shia LaBeouf.  He has the most expressive face. He can convey so much emotion from just his expression.  I don’t care what he tweets that seems crazy or paper bag over a head.  I will sit down and watch reruns of Even Stevens or Holes whenever I get a chance.
And if you’re like me and you want to see more Shia and his performance dance art, check out the second video, I think there is schlong in it.  And it is a Sigur Ros song.  I could write a whole other post about my love for Sigur Ros, but I won’t.

The video below is Shia performing the Sigur Ros song- it is way more weird.  However weird, it is beautiful and clearly about the damaging and tragic repetitive cycles we live.  I don’t care for the part with the candy and fish- I think the director was trying too hard at that point.  But overall it is a heart breaking video.  Trigger Warning- it shows abuse/partner violence.  And this is one is NSFW, on account of showing shlong and naked lady.

A little off topic, but If you enjoyed the song, regardless of if you liked the video, you should check out the video for Varuo that was directed by Jeff Ray.  This one is also a little heart breaking.



Music Monday: ∆

It’s another Music Monday!  I know I know, I hardly blog anymore and now I do it’s to blabber about a song I like.  I was quite right to wonder if I would have time to write with this new gig.  I worked about fourteen hours on Friday and on Saturday my body hurt like a eighty-five year old woman’s.  Pathetic.alt-j-An Awesome Wave-Cover

Trying to find time to write has been hard.  I have decided that I will make a point to write a blurb at least every day, something that I see or think- just write it as if I would put that piece in a book.  But let me assure you, the fact that I’m not “writing” doesn’t mean I’m not working on things.  I have been getting some really encouraging feedback on Second Chance Key from my beta readers.  I’m just waiting for a few more to come back, and a few locals to have time to meet up book club style so I can work through the issue of “genre” that the book has.

In the meantime I will listen to music that makes me feel inspired.  alt-J, also know as ∆ is one band that sends my mind off to play outside.  It is perfect night driving music.  I love it.  You may have heard some of their songs, Something Good was one of their more popular hits.

So sit back and enjoy some tunes on me 🙂


Black is the Colour…

I LOVE music.  Love it.  It inspires me, it helps evoke emotions and the right song can help me get into the head of a character.  I always create music playlists for whatever I’m writing and that playlist is what I listen to when I write.  If I don’t listen to music when I write I get easily distracted and constantly mumble and talk to myself.  It’s pretty obnoxious to everyone who isn’t me.  So I listen to music.  And sometimes sing along, sorry.

Today Black is the Colour, sung by Cara Dillon, played on my iPhone while it was on shuffle.  This song is from my Earthbound story and something I haven’t listened to in about a year.  I immediately took me back to my main character, Glory and right back into her head.  It made me nostalgic for her and her story.  I’ve been focusing so much on editing finished projects that I haven’t had time to work on finishing Earthbound.

My friend, you’ll find her here, demanded I finish Earthbound right away so she could work on the screenplay.  I want SO badly to get everything together, finished and published (self-published of course-who has the time to look for an agent/publisher?) that I just haven’t had any time to devote to it.  I’m sure I’m a massive disappointment to my friend.  Actually, she’s too busy hiking the mountains to notice so I’ll just keep banking on that to distract her.

Tonight I decided I’m going to work on a schedule for writing and editing that is feasible and planned.  That way when I come home at 8pm, get the kids showered and in bed and it’s 9pm and I still haven’t eaten, I’ll at least know when I’ll be able to write.  And I’ll beat up myself less for not writing on days like today.  Cuz by 9pm on a day like today, I’m fried.  I’m so ready to not be a single parent anymore (counting down till June when the hubz gets back).

Therefore, I will write tomorrow.  And I will write Friday afternoons…even if I want to take a nap instead.  I should also be able to write Monday nights.  So that is my writing plan.  M,W, Fri and weekends when I can.

How do any working parents with kids who participate in activities EVER do anything they themselves enjoy?  That is a whole other topic.

While you ponder how your day job and children ruins all your fun, Please enjoy the music from the soundtrack of the future hit movie Earthbound 😉

(interesting side note.  This song originated or was first attributed to the Appalachian region of the U.S. -in 1915 but most likely originated from Scotland.  It’s an old folksong with much history.  Please enjoy)


Focus on Friendship

I came across this oh so lovely song a few weeks ago. It’s Old Friend by Sea Wolf and quite frankly I have no idea how I even found this song, but when I listened to it I had a tad bit of a hard time not crying.

You see, I have a history of my friends moving away. Since I was in High School my favorite people have moved away from me. It started with my very best friend the summer before our senior year of High School and it happened most recently when two of my friends moved in the last two years. The year before that my neighbor and friend who I love like a sister moved at the same time a co-worker and friend moved to California and then a few months after that my wonderful friend and co-worker was laid off and might as well have moved to Alaska for how much I get to see her with our busy working mom schedules.  Lots of people seem to move away from here.  You all know who you are (insert stink eye)

These words:
“Old friend come back home
Even though you always were alone
You had to push against the faiths

Just to make it
Make it through the day”

made me ache for two friends in particular. One who only lived here for a few years alone with her two boys. I was alone a lot as well and our boys were friends so we would just take each others kids sometimes. If I could tell by the look on her face that she was having a bad day, I’d take her kids with me and let her have an afternoon to herself. She had to be “on”  all the time, I only had to be “on” a lot.

And she was the person I went to if I needed someone to take my boys. They are a handful and I don’t often feel like I can hoist them on a lot of people. When my sister had her stroke and they thought she might die, she would have been who I called for help with the kids so I could be there. I love and miss her.

So I sent this song to her and made her cry, almost made myself cry again. I assured her it wasn’t PMS before I sent it.  She often jokes that is why i sometimes get all verklempt when I think about her.

I also sent it to my old neighbor/friend because I miss her all the time too and she used to be someone I saw every day. She moved two hours a way and I get to see her maybe once a year. Stupid, I know. Two hours isn’t very far.

Even though I’m a little used to missing people, I’ve been missing my best friend since 1994, it’s still hard for me to recover after they leave.

I think it is really hard to find and make good friends. I find that a lot of people don’t really know how to be friends. So when you find them, they’re like gold and you should never ever lose them. You keep them close and hold them tight and always always love and remember them.  Each day when I drop my kids off at school I tell them I love them and to be a good friend today.  I hope they listen. And I hope you enjoy the song.

(my good friend/co-worker/mightaswellliveinAlaska friend gave me the topic idea – I was feeling uninspired.  Thanks friend!)

Music Monday: Cosmic Love


It’s Music Monday!! Today the song I’m telling you about is Cosmic Love by Florence + the Machine. She has an amazing, strong and rich voice and the song itself is beautiful. The words are found below.  My interpretation of the song is that it is about forbidden love- the kind that pulls you into a dark deep depression, potentially an affair of some sort. Or possibly being in love with a person that has such sadness/depression and darkness that they just drag you right down with them. Especially the part of the song where she almost sees her way out, she makes a map, but then hears him there in the dark and chooses to stay.  After the song lyrics is an amazing acoustic version of the song.


Cosmic Love

A falling star fell from your heart

And landed in my eyes
I screamed aloud, as it tore through them
And now it’s left me blind

The stars, the moon, they have all been blown out
You left me in the dark
No dawn, no day, I’m always in this twilight
In the shadow of your heart

And in the dark, I can hear your heartbeat
I tried to find the sound
But then it stopped and I was in the darkness
So darkness I became

The stars, the moon, they have all been blown out
You left me in the dark
No dawn, no day, I’m always in this twilight
In the shadow of your heart

I took the stars from my eyes and then I made a map
And knew that somehow I could find my way back
Then I heard your heart beats, you were in the darkness too
So I stayed in the darkness with you

The stars, the moon, they have all been blown out
You left me in the dark
No dawn, no day, I’m always in this twilight
In the shadow of your heart

The stars, the moon, they have all been blown out
You left me in the dark
No dawn, no day, I’m always in this twilight
In the shadow of your heart

Music Monday on Thursday

I’m a pretty humble gal.  I am not very good at taking compliments, I sort of dismiss them unless i’m mindful enough to remember a simple “thank you” will suffice.  But there is one thing I will brag about.  I’ll go on and on about.  I would venture to call myself a music evangelist.  I pride myself on is my good taste in music.  Music helps me feel good, helps me write and helps me sleep.  I’m lost without it.

I have had people WAAAAY cooler than I tell me that they don’t have access to cool music without me.  I have mailed CD’s across country to remedy that.   “Who uses CDs anymore” a young twenty-something asked me.  Well, probably older 30 somethings who use iTunes and don’t know how to get around copyright issues.  We need the CDs. But I digress.

So I thought that a gift I would give to someone who happened upon my blog on Mondays (except for this Thursday, just pretend it is Monday) would be the gift of a good song. Now, I can’t actually gift it to you, but i can gift you the momentary pleasure of listening to the song, enjoying the song and then maybe later you will purchase the song.

After 10 or so weeks I’ll burn all of the Music Monday songs onto a CD and have a giveaway.  YAY!  Giveaways are super fun!

Without further ado, today’s song is When I Grow Up by First Aid Kit.  First Aid is made up of two sisters that have magical sounding folksy voices.  Very singer/songwriter.  So sit back, close your eyes and take a listen.  Let me know what you think!

I confess… I love 80’s Europop! Shhhhh… you didn’t see this. Move along, nothing to see here, nothing to see.