Feeling sadness for my friend who left our world this yesterday. I’ve been mourning her for two weeks, since I got the call that she was transitioning. Transitioning. How I love her and how sad I am for how much time I missed with her this last year. I thought I’d have more time. How did I manage to miss it all?
Perspective is so important. Our life takes over and smothers us under huge blankets of responsibility and obligations. We occasionally lift a corner to press our lips to the fresh air and draw it in deeply before the too thick blanket of all the things that don’t really matter comes falling back over our face. Don’t let your life smother you and snuff out all the little joys you used to have time for. We sacrifice our happiness to all those distractions because, frankly, disappointing ourselves is the least of all evils. Disappointing others is much more painful. So we hunker down under that blanket that was once made of tasks and activities but is now knitted pieces of regret and resentment, and we try to remember to breathe and try to forget what it was like not to live under the blanket.
Cast off the blanket! Because no matter what that blanket is made of, if you miss out on one single important moment, it is never going to be worth it. And if you don’t believe me, take it from the lips of those who are at the end of their life. This article lists the top regrets of the dying and none of them are about having a bigger house, making more money or disappointing a boss.
I will try to honor my friend by having the best life I can and to remember to enjoy the moments, because, you have only that. Just moments. Life is short, live it the best you can. No regrets.
(When I found out my friend had passed, after a tough two weeks for everyone who loved her, I went to the beach and made a little memorial of stacked stones for her. It seemed the thing to do. The photo is found below along with the lyrics of one of Amanda Palmer’s songs Lost. When I learned my friend had days left to live I naturally fell into music. Music is my way to cope. Amanda’s music has helped me through tough times before so I went to Twitter and asked her followers tell me which song was the right song for grieving. Lost was the answer. Lost is the right answer. Because, truly, no one is lost forever. I love you Marcia. Forever.)